Am I Inadequate?
Recently a question came to me, a friend dared to utter he was feeling inadequate:
I have long hestitated to ask anyone, for the question is not very uplifting. I don’t know who else to ask, so forgive me for laying it out to you. I regularly catch myself having a flash going through my head -even in moments when I have the place all to myself and nothing pressing to do, all very relaxed-, that thoought being: ‘just end it now, you know it is the only logical thing to do!’
I feel like being a B-product, that never really functioned properly and should have been recalled by the manufacturer, to be disposed of. To be honest, I do understand such ideas popping up, when I am not comfortable in my own skin; it does surprise me that it also pops up when I am doing fairly ok. It feels very off to have a voice telling me: ’Be consistent for once, you know it is no use upholding this tapped out business, now is it? What I am curious about, am I the only one feeling defective, and it is better to get rid of such?
Well, that is quite the question to get! Some might even start wondering if they are suicidal with these lines popping up! Feelings of being inadequate are rather common. Many people feel something is off and should be functioning differently; just look around and see how the world is in chaos. Nature is being abused and money, fame and materialistic things seem to be all that counts. How can any sensitive being not feel that there is something of?
Though the line coming from deep within, might not be as gloomy as we perceive it to be. Our inner voice doesn’t mean us harm, it is merely stating, that indeed things are off and also that the way we have been functioning so far, isn’t bringing us any joy, so it is only logical, to end that. It does sound so simple, doesn’t it?
Basically the strategies we learned to use as a kid, backfire when we grow older: I used to be in the background, reading books and enjoying quiet time on my own. Now I am learning to get myself out there and be amongst more people than I’ve been used to. We truly need this transformation, just as a butterfly: There is a period that feels uncomfy, confined and we are in the dark about what is to happen next; just trust the process:
Real life and true happiness are outside our comfort zone!